Today was destined for failure.

H here to tell you that... well, read the title.  and for 2 reasons, actually.  Athletics has always been an issue for me since I have asthma that feels like its getting worse and worse. Today, since we have gym on thursdays, We got to play soccer. even by very-non-athletic friends were all lik e, in the zone or something, chasing the puffed up ball almost like they know how to play soccer, and I... I had 3 options.  1. pretend I know whats going on and play with the potential of messing up and completely failing. 2. go quit and get shamed-yelled at. 3. walk around casually, not playing but not quitting. It sounds like a dumb idea, but #3 is exactly what I did.  I walked around calmly, following the ball but never reaching it because some kids would purposely kick it very high to impress people and nobody else could reach, but I was not quitting. I asked/forced my friends to do it with me. I just kind of hopped on over to wherever the ball was, (I was just spinning is circles, That thing was all over the place!) and probably looked stupid.  But hey- Its better then "Rage-quitting" or pretending I know what i am doing and totally messing up.

The second failure today was  really bad. I somehow managed to get a "special part" in the school dance, and I was all excited and stuff... until we had practice today. It was my time to go on and i was not even remotely near the stage.  I realized I was 15 seconds late, (about 12 minutes in dancing time)  ran up to the stage and quickly did the dance with nobody else (since the other people in the part were still in the audience.) I awkwardly did the dance quickly and the part was over. giggles from the crowd.  then we did it again, this time I went on early and went way to fast. more giggles. Then again, when i was actually decent but my fellow special-parters were messing up. a lot more giggles. It was really sad because the three other special parts were flawless and every one clapped. I felt like an idiot and I wanted to rage-quit really bad.  I mean, my FRIENDS were laughing at me, thats how bad it was. The other girls special part was right after ours and my friends were in it and they were PERFECT!!! No flaws! (that were pointed out.) NOT ONE ISSHUE!!! And not only that, but their special part looks so much more girly and adorable and special then the one that I am in does... When the girls in the amazingly special special part tried my dance, of course, It looked perfect and sharp. then i try it and compared to them, I looked like some sort of diseased squirrel. I could feel shame practically oozing out of me. Of course, i got over it. We always do. It wasn't even a big deal, anyway. I laughed, too. But hey... Today was destined for failure. but its Thursday, and by tomorrow I'll have everything just fine.

P.S- post number 40!!!

"the purpose of having things is to share them."

"why fit in when you were born to stand out?"

"Be who you are and say what you feel, because those who mind do not matter and those who matter do not mind."

"Don't cry because its over, smile because it happened."

"In three words I can sum up everything Iv'e learned about life; it goes on."

"It's better to be hated for what you are than loved for what your not."

 H here, by the way. I wanted to start out with quotes today. Hope that was enough good-quoeteyness for you...


one more factoid... this one is a bit gross.

there is a myth that every year 8 spiders will crawl into your mouth as you sleep and you will mindlessly swallow them. spiders love warm, moist places, so in reality, it is a LOT more than 8. I hope you have a good nights sleep today.    :3

Sick.

 H here... Today, I am... very sick. again. I am having a reaction to eggs, one of the many things i am allergic to. I am enduring rhino sinusitis and pyrexia, which is just throwing up and a really bad fever. sad face. well, My mom and A are "up", so I have the first, second and third floor to myself. yay... not. I feel AWFUL and I can not eat ANYTHING!!! AAAARRRRRRGGGGGHHHH!!! anyone have an idea for stuff I can do?

well, now that i still have nothing to do, I will share with you some factoids.

1. many people think that bottled water comes from some haven in the mountains in like, Oz, where deers happily prance around and flowers magically grow into beautiful... flowers.  They think wrong. think about it more; It would cost a lot of cash to find such a place, get to it, take all the water, transport it back to the US, pack it into water bottles and distribute them. If the water was from such a place, a bottle would cost, like, $100, and more if you want it filtered, because of such a haven did exist, there would be a lot of animals there, and animals means... not-so-clean water. most bottled water is just tap water put in a bottle.

2. In side of london, there is a city called the city of london. It has its own government with a very complicated government. It is the oldest continuing government in all of great Britain.  London surounds it. London started getting governors in 200, while the governors for The City Of London goes 700 people back.  The oldness of the city means, well, pretty odd ways of doing stuff. back to the governor stuff; companies actually vote for who gets to be governor, in fact, they get three fourths of the votes. the governors full title is The Right Honorable, The Lord Mayor Of London. If you want to be the governor, well, you are out of luck. to just run for governor, you bust first be a sherif. to be sherif, you must first be and alderman. to be an alderman, (there are 25) you must get Freeman Status... and of course, it is the court of aldermen that give these out, which is a bit of a conflict of interest. I can go on forever, but... mow you know about the secret City Of London in London in England in Great Britain, or a city in a city in a country in a country.

3. most people think that if you attack an ostrich, which is just dumb to do anyway, it will stick its head in the ground. Ostrich's weigh 340 LBs, are very aggressive,  have very sharp beaks and even sharper claws.  If you were going to kill an ostrich, keeping these facts in mind, do you really think it will just stick its head in the ground and accept its death? no, of course not, and if this was the case they would live about as long as dodo birds did. Just like with every other animal in the animal kingdom, if you attack an ostrich, it will either run away at 40 miles per hour or... game over for you.

4. baby birds. a mother bird will not abandon a baby bird because you touched it about as much as you would abandon your child if a bird touched it. if you happen to see a baby bird on the ground and a nest near by, just pick it up and put it in the nest. no harm done.

 5. dogs are not color blind. they see fine, but the only primary color they see is blue.This does not bother your dog until you buy a red toy and throw it in the green grass. you can easily see it because your ancestors were picking red berries from green plants and needed to see the color difference.  Your canine friend did not need to see these precious berries, so do not buy a red toy and throw it in the green grass and act like they are stupid for not finding it.

and 6. If you have ever held a bat then you know they are not blind because if you look at it then it will look right back at you- with its eyes- that it uses to see things. But they do one better by using echolocation (it lets them see in the dark) so to the bats, your the blind one.


 hope that filled you with interesting and pointless facts.